Mookie’s Last Christmas

The past is always with you
-Nick Gardner

Yes, Nick. Damned Decembers.

Shutters To A Stop

I wish we could forget everything that we have ever been through and go back to the 29th August 2008. I wish that one hour will last forever, and we’ll never have to part, never ever be apart.

“If love is a labour, I’ll slave till the end,
I won’t cross these streets until you hold my hand..”

The Arms of Sorrow

Imprisoned, inside this mind,
Hiding behind the empty smiles.
So simple, the anguish,
As it mocks me,
Crawling back into the dark.

Deeper I’m falling,
Into the arms of sorrow.
Blindly descending.
There must be serenity,
There must be deliverance.

Something

I feel like I should let you go, but I don’t know how to. I don’t know how to do so without hurting you, and I can’t bear to let you go too, not after we have been through so much together. I don’t want you to be hurt. I do care about you, but I don’t know if I love you, or if I am just in love with the feeling of love. Sometimes I feel like I don’t love you as much as you love me, but sometime I feel like you are all that matters. Why do my feelings for you fluctuate? I am so confused. I keep feeling like I don’t deserve you. I’m sorry to put you through all this pain. I truly am. But I can’t make a decision because I really don’t know what I want. I don’t know what to do.

Sigh. Where do we go from here?

Falling Away

When it comes down to this
A scene that we’ve seen before
I won’t let you go, I won’t stand to watch
as these walls start to fall apart

I’m falling away, away from your arms
That kept me so close to the things that I love
I’m holding it back, take me back to your heart
A place to remember I’ll always be yours…

A place to remember I’ll always be yours.